Prior to my ASD diagnosis, Christmas could be quite a stressful time because of my Asperger’s. Although five-year-old me expressed a love for Christmas lights, I was always quite agitated and tearful around Christmastime. In my earlier post, I talked about my struggles with birthdays, and for a while, Christmas caused similar problems. In addition to the sheer volume of additional stimulation that Christmas brings, due to my lack of innate social skills, I often didn’t know how to express my feelings about Christmas, which could make it a frustrating experience for me.Continue reading
When I got back to school in sixth form after so long off, it was weird. Everyone had raved about the jump from GCSEs to A levels, how much harder it would be. But personally, at the start of the year, I was surprised. I didn’t find my subjects (English Literature, History and Spanish) all that difficult, and I kept on top of work fine. If anything, I was a bit bored.
It became apparent that I’d gone in expecting it to be much harder than it was, and part of that, I believe, was because I’d sort of settled into the level of stress that I’d experienced at the end of the GCSE course. Due to the COVID rearrangements, I didn’t do my exams, but rather ‘in-class assessments’, which were basically exams only there were twice as many and they were stretched out over a period of six weeks. Therefore, I’d gotten used to functioning at that extremely high level of stress, doing tons of revision, constantly, almost on the edge of burnout. So the return to a ‘normal’, baseline workload at the start of year 12 came as something of a surprise.Continue reading