What is Asperger’s Syndrome?
Asperger’s syndrome is classed as medical condition and is on the autism spectrum. Despite its slightly startling name, it is actually rather beneficial, although it does have some disadvantages. This neurological condition, known more commonly as just ‘aspergers’ has been called lots of different things – a developmental disorder, a disability, a superpower – (some labels arguably more valid than others) but to me, it’s just another part of who I am, for better and for worse.
As an aspie kid (a child with aspergers) I feel things more deeply than perhaps others would. For example, whilst you would just shrug off a bad morning and focus on having a decent afternoon, I would be consumed by the bad morning and wish to start again. My view of the world is divided into days, which are either good, bad, okay, really good, or really bad. For a day to be a good day, it has to be completely fine.
If there is an incident then it must be incredibly small for me to ignore it, if an incident hasn’t happened, it will be a good day. If something extra special happens, it can be a really good day. However although this system brings me happiness and brings an order and routine to my life, it is sometimes upsetting. This is because if something bad happens in the morning, it cannot be a good day. This makes me feel upset and just wanting to start the day again.
I cope fine during my daily life, going to school and doing work and having fun are all natural to me, but the one thing I struggle with is an ability to socialise. Making new friends is harder and talking to people, especially people I don’t know, is rather difficult. One of the symptoms that I live with is it is practically impossible to make eye contact.